And so it begins...

Here's the deal. I've been here many times before. I am a fat person. I have always been fat, now I am even fatter. I am 30 years old, 5'8" and weigh 253lbs. And I am just sick of it. Enough already!

Throughout my life I have been subjected to the same things all fat people have. For as long as I can remember, I have been told that I am not good enough - that I am wrong and disgusting and worthless because I am fat.

Though I don't feel that way, I know that many others DO feel that way. I can't change that. What I can change is me. So that is what I am going to do. I need to lose weight for my own physical benefit - but mostly, for my own mental benefit!

I am smart. I am funny. I am active. I am creative. I am a loyal friend and loving family member. My house is impeccable. I am a contributing member of society. I have been employed full-time since I was 18 years old. I am not a drain on the health system. I am not any of the things society assumes I would be as a fat person.

I can go into details of how horrible it is to be fat in other posts. Today, I am simply saying enough already! About everything. About being fat, about making excuses as to why I am fat, about letting others make me feel really horrible about myself when I do not deserve it.

What happened was, I am expected to fly out to California for business in April. I just got done reading a ton (no pun intended) of posts about Kevin Smith being too fat to fly. This was already a slight fear of mine - but after today, I am terrified. So today is the day that I have had ENOUGH ALREADY!